Your chest tightens- itís almost a suffocating feeling, and all you can do is try not to cry. Youíre heart pounds, and you have to bite your tongue to prevent saying the hateful words that are on your mind. Iíve had this feeling many of times throughout life. Hate was crawling in, and itís the hardest emotion to escape from.
My father left my mother and I when I was in the second grade and I hated him for abandoning us. As things began to fall apart in my personal life, I blamed him for the areas that I struggled with. The hate that I had for him changed into a hate for all men in general. For the longest time I was afraid that any man that came into my life would abandon me just like my father did. The hate that I possessed not only affected my relationship with him, but also with others. I was becoming bitter.
The thing is that I never told him how I felt, and the grudge just continued to grow. If I had spoken to him earlier on in life, things could have been different. It was wrong for him to leave, but my response to it was just as bad. A couple of years ago, I decided to let that hate go, and give him a chance to be a Dad again. He wanted that relationship just as much as I did. The freedom that I felt was unbelievable, and not only was my relationship with my father restored, but also my confidence in men.
You never forget when your heart is broken, but if you donít forgive, that pain will never leave- it will haunt you, and later in life you will look back, seeing the years that were wasted because of one fight.
Whether it is a parent that abandoned you when you needed them the most, or just a friend that said the wrong thing at the wrong time, you canít hold onto the anger. There is always someone that is going to hurt you. And there are times that we are going to hurt someone else. Itís just human nature. You canít let hate get to the point where it is controlling your life. Never go to sleep angry. Talk it out- years of your life could be saved by one single conversation. Itís not a sin to be angry, but it is a sin to hold onto that anger.
Ephesians 4:26-27 - Be angry and do not sin. Do not let the sun go down on your wrath, nor give place to the devil.
Satan wants to destroy us, and the best way to do it is to turn us against each other. Donít give him the chance. Has hate for someone or something built up in your heart? If so, itís not too late to let it go. I challenge you to confront that person, apologize for any wrongdoing that you may have caused in the matter, and I guarantee that you will feel a sense of freedom, and you may even restore a wonderful relationship.
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